2 Gods and a Child

I swear to God I feel this time I got it
Hide it but you know I find it
Try me I’m just getting started
Blind me I still gonna spot it
Set it straight if this my fate
Then I won’t even look away
Crawl inside my losing mind
Cross the line I can’t rewind
The kind of shit that makes me climb
Edge of cliff and just drive...
*Feeling the pain of my momma she cries
So I’m feeding the monster to keep it alive *
Feeling the pain time again and again and again in the name of the one who called Cain,
And you cannot maintain, Understand as you can,
how you feel as a failure and fail as a man
And I'm killing the game and I'm killing the shame
I'm taking the blame while its poison my brain
And they keeping me chained and they keeping me tame and they keeping me hang me, hang me, hang me, hang me, hang
(hang me, hang me, hang)

Thinking myself all the shit that I've seen, shit that I’ve been through, shit that I'm in, digging and drinking and sinking and thinking scheming the devil to protect my kin
if you know what I mean, please God let them in, only one on the scene you should blame for their sins
myself and my genes and a bottle of gin
I wish that I could end this dream

Hear me out before you kill me
Kill me if you don't believe me
Leave me if you cannot feel me
Feel me only then you'll see me
See the way I make it easy
Use the booze to feel the breezy
Judge me, no I do not care
Scare or dare I hit that shit

Help me please I think I’m drowning
Drowning while you smile and clowning
Water deep, here's what I've found in it
Life and death, the sound of silence
Countless times, countless rhymes
Soul divine through darkness shine
The end of time I make it mine
The stars align then I'm just fine
A dropped cocked nine got hit from a mile
God put me on trial but I’m still a Lil child
Outside in the wild feeling bless but defile
If I'm passing the sentence then I stay a lil' while
While it's eating me feeding me guilt and a lie,
The villain in Eden was breaking the tie
With no meaning or feeling
Slit my wrist in to fit in
But then I’ve seen my son smile...

2nd verse
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The feeling of falling when heavens are calling, the kids in the middle they all in we balling,
To get what was stolen from the crack of our soul and
The wolves in the back and the pack got me walled in
From morning to morning, get torn and be born in
A home that was gone all alone like a ronin
You hold on, I'm holding
To two gods I'm belonging
(Ride or die) to the very end, I ’ma rise again
Grab my hand, I ‘ma rise again
Time to choose I ‘ma rise again
Take two steps in, show your face in
All or none 'till I die again
And I 'ma go as planned, yes my friend understand
kill the demon from within
Dream you into a beautiful dream
I'll do anything just to stop my baby’s screams

Please daddy daddy, please daddy help me please
I can't wake up mommy, daddy please what it means

Music reminds me of spaces and places and beautiful faces I would like to forget
And I set it as a Russian roulette, if you get it you get it, you hate it there is no regret
you bet and you made it, it cannot be faded, you must understand it, your fate is dependent of mind elevated, feelings are gated, depression over shaded
The blue devil attack, I can't kill him in fact, I feel the lack of the strength to keep me intact
I need the hip the hop the rap
Or else how the fuck can I fill the gap
When I see a sign, I just think how much I miss you
And when I kiss you will I ever see your face again?
I’m sorry mama but I try (really try)
In the middle can't decide
2 gods and a child